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March 2009 
Living in truth
Posted on Feb 19th, 2009
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muji
muji
Yesterday morning the Sun moved into Pisces and I became very suddenly angry. I was angry at the world for the condition it's in. I was especially angry at everyone who makes it so which is basically all but the VERY few. I was angry at the lack of couracge to stand up for what was right, for the universal truth. I was angry at everyone who has ever tried to tell me that truth is personal, that I was being judgemental when suggesting that we all had the same truth, but had personal DISTORTIONS of that truth.
I was angry at myself.for not living truthfully and was projecting that anger outward. I live outside Chicago. Picking up a newspaper lately has been a constant reminder of the lack of truth in our lives and especially a reminder of my own life of compromise. Blago comes from the same part of the world as my parents. So did one of his mentors, Fast Eddie Vrdolyak, who was my late uncle's lawyer and who my uncle called "the biggest crook I've ever met." And, now Roland Burris. And, Tod Stroger works blocks from where I live and serves less as Cook County Comissioner than as yet another reminder of untruth.
I use astrology. I realized more than a year ago that we were all about to face 16 years of having to face the truth about ourselves as Pluto began it's journey through Capricorn. If you want to understand Capricorn energy, just think about Martin Luther King jr, a man who stood up for his convictions and whose convictions were quite close to universal truth. We're all being asked to fess up to our own inner MLK's. We're being challenged to oust the hacks who we keep giving our power to, like Blago, AND to oust our own inner Blago!
Yes, we have a collective inner Blago. I certainly do. I compromise my own truth every day. I tell clients what they want to hear instead of what they need to hear and address. I couch what I say to stay within the parameters of their fear...and I am thus ruled by their fear.
And, we all do it to different degrees and in infinitely individual ways. For one thing, we try to be "nice", or politically correct. We're much too afraid to look at our own negativity, let alone engage other peoples' negativity. And, in this way we fail each other very miserably. We are each other's enabler. And, it eats away at us silently because we have to contract and control our energy. We are much too afraid to be in truth because we have to go through our own distortions of it before we actually can be there.
I'm a bodyworker. I'm a very financially unsuccessful bodyworker. But, I could easily change that if I gave people what they want which is basically escape or denial. My profession is rife with charletainism. We take money to keep people stuck by giving them the illusion of making progress. But, they don't really progress until they create a crisis for themselves. The crisis finally stirs their energy enough for them to want to face the fear that they're quite content to live with until the crisis. But, 99.9% of us resist change, the DEEP and thorough change we really need...including myself. Pluto is going through my 8th house, it's own house, as it moves through Capricorn. That's why I'm critically aware of the need to stop posing. It's extremely scary. It feels like life and death. I can see how it all connects to the end of the Mayan calendar and all of the earth changes (Pluto in Capricorn) that are on the horizon. I can see all of the structures within ourselves, our society and reflected in the earth itself shifting and doing so intensely and to the core. What isn't based on universal truth will collapse and what IS aligned with truth will be empowered, strengthened.
Well, Pluto represents change to the CORE, nuclear change. The planet was discovered concurrently with the discovery of nuclear energy and with the rise of Fascism. Pluto brings the darkness to light so that it can be addressed and enlightened. It is like the hero's journey through hell, through fear. And, last year Pluto just ended it's 12 year journey through expansive, religious Sagittarius. We had the dark aspects of expansion and religion brought to the surface. We went through a phase of greed and over-indulgence, through unbounded expansion. EVERYTHING expanded, faith (religion) in securities, the size and financial value of houses, the size of vehicles, of gas prices, of baseball players and their home run totals, of children (their girth) and self-righteous religious dogma.
And, now that Pluto has moved into responsible Capricorn we're only BEGINNING to pay for all of our excesses. It's part of the very deep purification process we HAVE to go through whenever there are dark aspects to anything. But, we only have to because we refuse to proactively transform that darkness. We need the crises and that's why we create them. Crises are our way of dealing with our fear induced paralysis.
Pluto going through Capricorn represents the thorough purification of authority. The spate of scandals like with Blago, with religious abuses of authority (priests abusing children or religious leaders sending people off to die) and with any other personal or social abuses of power will be rising to the surface so that we can take our power back. This is a HUGE consciousness shift. And, it's just beginning.
And, it all has to start with ourselves. We have to face our own fears and our abdication of personal authority. We will be spending the next 16 years getting intimately acquainted with our fear, with our dishonesty which starts with being dishonest with ourselves. We'll see how we compromise ourselves through fear and how that leads us into anger at those who we hand our energy to because of that personal abdication. Compromise is an interesting word, isn't it? Being in a "compromising situation" is considered not good, but "compromising" is a goal?! If we're in truth, there is no compromise, just alignment with that universal truth. We'll all be our own MLK.
I was angry at myself.for not living truthfully and was projecting that anger outward. I live outside Chicago. Picking up a newspaper lately has been a constant reminder of the lack of truth in our lives and especially a reminder of my own life of compromise. Blago comes from the same part of the world as my parents. So did one of his mentors, Fast Eddie Vrdolyak, who was my late uncle's lawyer and who my uncle called "the biggest crook I've ever met." And, now Roland Burris. And, Tod Stroger works blocks from where I live and serves less as Cook County Comissioner than as yet another reminder of untruth.
I use astrology. I realized more than a year ago that we were all about to face 16 years of having to face the truth about ourselves as Pluto began it's journey through Capricorn. If you want to understand Capricorn energy, just think about Martin Luther King jr, a man who stood up for his convictions and whose convictions were quite close to universal truth. We're all being asked to fess up to our own inner MLK's. We're being challenged to oust the hacks who we keep giving our power to, like Blago, AND to oust our own inner Blago!
Yes, we have a collective inner Blago. I certainly do. I compromise my own truth every day. I tell clients what they want to hear instead of what they need to hear and address. I couch what I say to stay within the parameters of their fear...and I am thus ruled by their fear.
And, we all do it to different degrees and in infinitely individual ways. For one thing, we try to be "nice", or politically correct. We're much too afraid to look at our own negativity, let alone engage other peoples' negativity. And, in this way we fail each other very miserably. We are each other's enabler. And, it eats away at us silently because we have to contract and control our energy. We are much too afraid to be in truth because we have to go through our own distortions of it before we actually can be there.
I'm a bodyworker. I'm a very financially unsuccessful bodyworker. But, I could easily change that if I gave people what they want which is basically escape or denial. My profession is rife with charletainism. We take money to keep people stuck by giving them the illusion of making progress. But, they don't really progress until they create a crisis for themselves. The crisis finally stirs their energy enough for them to want to face the fear that they're quite content to live with until the crisis. But, 99.9% of us resist change, the DEEP and thorough change we really need...including myself. Pluto is going through my 8th house, it's own house, as it moves through Capricorn. That's why I'm critically aware of the need to stop posing. It's extremely scary. It feels like life and death. I can see how it all connects to the end of the Mayan calendar and all of the earth changes (Pluto in Capricorn) that are on the horizon. I can see all of the structures within ourselves, our society and reflected in the earth itself shifting and doing so intensely and to the core. What isn't based on universal truth will collapse and what IS aligned with truth will be empowered, strengthened.
Well, Pluto represents change to the CORE, nuclear change. The planet was discovered concurrently with the discovery of nuclear energy and with the rise of Fascism. Pluto brings the darkness to light so that it can be addressed and enlightened. It is like the hero's journey through hell, through fear. And, last year Pluto just ended it's 12 year journey through expansive, religious Sagittarius. We had the dark aspects of expansion and religion brought to the surface. We went through a phase of greed and over-indulgence, through unbounded expansion. EVERYTHING expanded, faith (religion) in securities, the size and financial value of houses, the size of vehicles, of gas prices, of baseball players and their home run totals, of children (their girth) and self-righteous religious dogma.
And, now that Pluto has moved into responsible Capricorn we're only BEGINNING to pay for all of our excesses. It's part of the very deep purification process we HAVE to go through whenever there are dark aspects to anything. But, we only have to because we refuse to proactively transform that darkness. We need the crises and that's why we create them. Crises are our way of dealing with our fear induced paralysis.
Pluto going through Capricorn represents the thorough purification of authority. The spate of scandals like with Blago, with religious abuses of authority (priests abusing children or religious leaders sending people off to die) and with any other personal or social abuses of power will be rising to the surface so that we can take our power back. This is a HUGE consciousness shift. And, it's just beginning.
And, it all has to start with ourselves. We have to face our own fears and our abdication of personal authority. We will be spending the next 16 years getting intimately acquainted with our fear, with our dishonesty which starts with being dishonest with ourselves. We'll see how we compromise ourselves through fear and how that leads us into anger at those who we hand our energy to because of that personal abdication. Compromise is an interesting word, isn't it? Being in a "compromising situation" is considered not good, but "compromising" is a goal?! If we're in truth, there is no compromise, just alignment with that universal truth. We'll all be our own MLK.
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