How could your life be more balanced?
Posted on Jan 16th, 2009
by
muji
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for January 16, 2009:
I don't want any part of balance. It takes an incredible amount of energy and concentration to maintain balance. However...INTEGRATION is a piece of cake...it's second nature! When things are integrated they just are. Balance implies that they're still split and therefore tension exists. And where there's tension, there is fear, like the fear of losing that balance!

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I think you are absolutely right.
Therefore, I am…;)
and so it is
and there you are
I was just putting Descartes before de horse.
I never thought of it that way… but then i dont think of balance as a tension, or a 50/50 thing, integration is a great word, and perhaps closer to my idea or ideal of what is my definition of balance. I don’t want the same number of highs and lows, or good and bad, these become judgement it might seem… balancing my whole life sometimes feels like a juggling act, but they all happen at the same time… multitasking… in order for balance in my life, it just means that I am aware of where I feel in the midst of it, so ‘awareness’ comes into my mind. if I had to balanceon a tightrope, then that would cause much tension, but I prefer the rope to wobble and weave and see and watch as i squiggle in between… a balancing act indeed that would look like… very funny indeed. good thing I did not join the barnam and bailey, my life is a circus, with many rings of activities and emotions always crossing over into each other… this is what my balance looks like. spontaeous combustion some days and others when the doldrums hit, or anger or fear, then that is ok.
besides it being an emotional balance of feeling extremes at the same time, and I do enjoy that… I can even say Love that… even tho that is not the usual meaning of love. but I can feel love for almost anything, an inanimate object that arouses memories of a lost loved one, or the trees rustling their leaves in a gentle wind… this seems to also connect to your other blog on love… or watching 2 french men yelling at eah other… or a janitor mopping a floor in such a way of movement that it feels as if it were a zen moment of being at one with the floorand mop, creating a sensual dance for those of us lucky to watch it with deep respect and reverence for ajob beautifully done. there are too many interpretations of love, as you noted. altho you seemed to have criticized the use of some… but there also has been much abuse of the word love… if you loved me you would do this for me/ that is control issue… that is not love or balance… or the amount of times someoone may say I love you because they want sex, and only a quikie… this too is not love. altho ok by me if mutually have the same need simouItaneously-then divine! I have felt deep love for many people, and it is usually because they fill part of me, or are part of me. or I want to be part of them, and ideally it is not unrequited, but agreed and felt… I do not love any of my friends in the same way. each individual I know is a special part of me. we weave our own tapestry. so yes, integrate is wondrful to say, but balance is about how comfortable and uncomfortable one chooses to feel. it does not need to cause any tenseness. or ever intenseness… or am I just rambling on in the middle of the nite, like I Love to do… my own schedule is way out of balance for most of the world, but it is my schedule that I truly feel in balance with, whether chaos or still. and one can always chose a different word for chaos and still, to be busy and quiet at the same time… with no tense or no fear… just IS… detach, reattach, they are the same in the bigger picture each o fus have of ourselves. was this too many words??? I am only just thinking with my finger tips and it feels balanced and loved… but thanks for reminding me about integrated… all life , or most o fmy life, always feels integrated to many levels.
so heres to love and balance and integrative tapestries we all create!